u/Former-Marionberry63

This is not a life

Thankfully there is a "rant" flair lol.

How am I supposed to live in such a semi-zombie like state ?

Living in my head ,anhedonia ,abulia ,apathy you name it .

I want to live a meaningful and creative life or to end my life but I am a total coward to do so .

Do not get me wrong. I admit there are worse . i could be living in a war torn zone suffering from famine and disease.

I wonder what kind of God exists . I believe in existence of God but I am not so sure about his benevolence and intentions.S

What kind of purpose could he have for a schizoid?

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