Hi everyone. I (19M) just want to share my story with you guys. I would really appreciate it if you read it. It has been three years since I saw her for the first time. I was late for my coaching class, I usually sat in the middle row, but that day, my mam asked me to sit in the front row. Everything was fine until I looked to my right and saw her sitting next to me. The moment I saw her, I froze. My mind went blank and my heart started beating faster. I had never experienced anything like that in my life. She was just so beautiful. Later, our mam asked us to take out our phones to look at some questions she had shared. Her phone was dead, so the mam asked me to share mine. In that moment, we had a small conversation. She was a PCB student and I was a PCM student. We cracked some jokes, and I realized she had a great personality. I fell for her right then and there. We waved at each other in the next class, but after a few days, she stopped coming. Mam eventually removed her number from the group, and I lost contact with her forever. I never saw her again, but she left a piece of herself in me. Even though we didn't talk much, I changed after that. I used to be someone who didn't understand love or why people cried over breakups. I used to believe that girls only dated rich guys and that partners were replaceable. Everything changed. I started believing in 'date to marry' and being a 'one-woman man.' I started respecting women even more.
I’ve tried to move on, but I can't forget her. I had a crush afterward, but things didn't go well. My first year of college is almost over, and I still haven't felt that way for anyone else. Sometimes I feel like she made me weak. I became that kind of person everyone likes but no one wants to be with. I feel so weak. I just want to be who I was before.
Tldr: I met a girl for just one day three years ago, and even though she disappeared, she completely changed me. I went from being a cynic who didn't believe in love to someone who wants something real and respectful. Now, finishing my first year of college, I feel stuck like being a good guy has made me weak and lonely, and I honestly just miss the person I used to be.