u/Formal-Border7267

Two years ago i discovered quake live with friends , i never played any shooters game but i like the fast pace , retro look and overall feeling of it but i don't push it enought , and since i now no longer talk with them (long story short they were boomer who hated everything new so i cut contact with them but that's not the point)

So now i try to find people only to play , since i don't have friends who plays quake live , but on FFA server nobody talks with me

And wenn i join server for duel people do the thing wherethey check my elo and they instant quit , probably cause it's really really low. how can i find a community to progress and help me ? is there a discord or something like that ?

it's been several months that i cry with no control at random moment of the day and it got more and more intense the recent day
Is this something to worry about ? Why is it ?

it happens to me some time wenn i was younger but since a year or so it got more and more intense

Ok so i litteraly finish my first session of my first campaign so here is the context :

My group full of no experience CoC player (especially 1 girl who never did TTG) my group was compose of 5 people ; one 63 years old DnD veteran , two young average player man , and 2 girls one of 17 y/o with no tt experience and one with 25 or so girl experienced. (And me 21 y/o)

- During 20 minutes First of with roll dice for everyone caracteristic (POW , STR etc...)

- I Plan the synopsis (here is my scenario) :

"We are in 1928 in Chicago. You are a group of three young friends, aged between 20 and 40, and you are hit hard by the economic crisis of the interwar period. Life’s circumstances have led you to frequent the world of the streets. However, an invaluable opportunity comes knocking at your door: a lieutenant of the Italian-American mafia hires you. The man, named Giuseppe Rossolini, suspects his wife of cheating on him. You are therefore hired to keep an eye on his wife during a party organized by the mafia, under the cover of being bodyguards. The pay is $500, which, at the time, could represent several weeks of work."

-They watch and approch the Lady

-They follow her while she run away in a strange door after sneaking away

-They search in a chamber and find a revolver a secret book ( in secret it's Legends of Liqualia)

-Player A find suspicius bottle

-Player B Drink it and get paralyse allmost die but was save by Player C first aid medic skill

-Player C and A kills a Guard

Tha summarize our 3 hours of gameplay for the first session

I have still a lot of trouble ; especially for the Skills system rules and Combat rules who seems to vague to me.

I am not sure if done great , i just try to do my best but i begin to sens some tension like player B dislike player A for doing to much outside joke and not be serious enought (player A is the young girl with no experience)

What can i do better ?

i never played a roleplay game

i never read any Lovecraft books

BUT i read the entire Gardian's book so i will try to be the best game master than i can and i allready found a group of 4 people to play with

What would be yours advices ? i am not sure where to start and i am a bit stressed