u/Forgottenbrother_

Hi,

I am curious if there are individuals here, who have an interest to 'go deep' in a sort of transparent conversation with an aspect of transparent self reflection. This is something that has been coming up for some time for me, as I experience a sort of mirroring dynamic going on in interpersonal relationships so I wondered what it would be like if the parties participating in the communication went to it with the intent to 'reveal the mirror' in a sense. An aspect of this seems to me like a kind of breaking reality in a way. To be honest it may be in reality completely different than I imagine it to be but I am curious if there is someone who has thought of similar "endeavour".

I guess there is a transparent communication but I have a sense that there might be something beyond that.

I might just turn this into a question regarding transparent communication.

What are your experiences?

Where do you find to be the limits to the transparency?

And as I think about it the main question would be how do you know if you are transparent to yourself?

Thank you for any responses.

Hi I want to ask I there is someone who found Spiritual Science / Anthroposophy by Rudolf Steiner and also had psychedelic experiences? As I suspect that that man experienced those states that I have experienced on substance but (him) without them and also without the visuals. Sure the language seems odd (where he is talking about it) in connection to what is expressed but I am certain he is talking about the same realms tbh.

Anyone here have similar experiences?

Hi I want to ask I there is someone who found Spiritual Science / Anthroposophy by Rudolf Steiner and also had psychedelic experiences. As I suspect that man experienced those states that I have experienced on substance but (him) without them and also without the visuals. Sure the language seems odd (where he is talking about it) in connection to what is expressed but I am certain he is talking about the same realms tbh.

Anyone here have similar experiences?

Have you experienced ego death?

If yes how would you describe the experience?

If no how do you image it to be?

Thank you for any responses.

edit: added question - What is your view of/stance towards 'ego death'?

It has now been around 3 years ago that I had multiple psychedelic experiences. (now 24M)

Those were:

-first trip on 1 tab of LSD (not sure ug)

-the day after another 1 tab

-6,5 g of freshly dried shrooms coupled with hhc e-pen

-1,5 tab of LSD (around 300ug per tab) with marijuana

-around 3 or 4 trips on around 3g of freshly dried shrooms on saturdays for 3-4 weeks as a "healing deep dive"

-other than these occasions there were few other trips (2 come to mind, lsd and shrooms)

It all happened in the span of a year (end of 2022 - end of 2023).

One of the experiences was quite extreme (the 1,5 tab + marijuana) others differed in nature but some aspects of the experiences were the same (visuals, no hunger or thirst, etc.).

I jumped into it from a atheistic frame of mind before the first trip I was curious as to what it would be like, I was also drawn by the term "ego death", that was something that really peaked my interest. After that other "motives joined",I was looking to (as far as I remember) "upgrade", open the third eye, manifest and all these "cool sounding things", there was an aspect of an actual search for meaning and truth of reality but I do not want to pain it as purely searching for the truth. This other side of the striving (manifesting and the selfish character of these endeavours) has lead to the 'quite extreme' experience for the most part as I see it now.

I wasn't ready for what I opened myself to. I didn't think I was opening myself to something real. I didn't know how far from reality I was in how I thought about what is real and what is not. I did something that cannot be taken back, for some time the fact that what has been opened cannot be closed/there is no going back, was something I really hat to come to terms with.

Now in this whole process what actually brought me from insanity that started and accompanied a good portion of the year 2023 and over flowed in a decreasing manner to the following year was learning about what I had opened myself up to. A sense that I have forced myself to "something" was a feeling that came up in the process.

I guess I am writing this to speak to those that are thinking about going into "it". Just be aware that there is a world unseen by the eyes and unheard by the ears that you are opening yourself up to, world that is real. While the moral quality of one is a reality when entering.

On the other hand I am interested in hearing from those who experienced it. How do you perceive (how are you thinking about it) what is going on during it? Have some aspects stuck around even after the trip(s)? What is actually going on in these states?

It has now been around 3 years ago that I had multiple psychedelic experiences. (now 24M)

Those were:

-first trip on 1 tab of LSD (not sure ug)

-the day after another 1 tab

-6,5 g of freshly dried shrooms coupled with hhc e-pen

-1,5 tab of LSD (around 300ug per tab) with marijuana

-around 3 or 4 trips on around 3g of freshly dried shrooms on saturdays for 3-4 weeks as a "healing deep dive"

-other than these occasions there were few other trips (2 come to mind, lsd and shrooms)

It all happened in the span of a year (end of 2022 - end of 2023).

One of the experiences was quite extreme (the 1,5 tab + marijuana) others differed in nature but some aspects of the experiences were the same (visuals, no hunger or thirst, etc.).

I jumped into it from a atheistic frame of mind before the first trip I was curious as to what it would be like, I was also drawn by the term "ego death", that was something that really peaked my interest. After that other "motives joined",I was looking to (as far as I remember) "upgrade", open the third eye, manifest and all these "cool sounding things", there was an aspect of an actual search for meaning and truth of reality but I do not want to pain it as purely searching for the truth. This other side of the striving (manifesting and the selfish character of these endeavours) has lead to the 'quite extreme' experience for the most part as I see it now.

I wasn't ready for what I opened myself to. I didn't think I was opening myself to something real. I didn't know how far from reality I was in how I thought about what is real and what is not. I did something that cannot be taken back, for some time the fact that what has been opened cannot be closed/there is no going back, was something I really hat to come to terms with.

Now in this whole process what actually brought me from insanity that started and accompanied a good portion of the year 2023 and over flowed in a decreasing manner to the following year was learning about what I had opened myself up to. A sense that I have forced myself to "something" was a feeling that came up in the process.

I guess I am writing this to speak to those that are thinking about going into "it". Just be aware that there is a world unseen by the eyes and unheard by the ears that you are opening yourself up to, world that is real. While the moral quality of one is a reality when entering.

On the other hand I am interested in hearing from those who experienced it. How do you perceive (how are you thinking about it) what is going on during it? Have some aspects stuck around even after the trip(s)? What is actually going on in these states?

Hi, I am wondering what is it that draws you to choose to be a specific type of a starseed. As in what speaks about it for you?

At the moment I am not in the starseed movement but few years ago I was. Than what I 'resonated' with was "blue avian" (not sure if it even counts as a starseed) and "pleiadian". I would like to learn more about how others experience it.

What drawn me to blue avian was a sense of multi-dimensionality, cosmic expanses, the color blue, a sense of clear and mighty spiritual wisdom, consciousness and conscious presence, eternity, unboundedness, individuality, exploration, infinity, connection to the underlying fabric of reality.

And with the pleiades while I did not look into it more deeply I associated wateriness, softness, fluidity, gentleness, a strange non-eartly alienity and connected to that a kind of alien grace permeated with wisdom. While it was accompanied with an alien imagery (like the grey alien but blue in some kind of white or greyish robes).

Thank you for any responses.

-Pride-

Be better than you or beneath you. Be smarter, more clever, poses more knowledge, more intelligence, superior reason. Look down on you as a enlightened teacher. Look down on you as on a simple minded creature that in its simple mindedness resides so beneath my supreme intelligence that I have to fake piety to appear human to it. Acting pious, inwardly standing in glorious splendor of the most high, rising oneself above all 'mere normal people' you being one of them.

How inflamed, how risen up high does one feel, how exalted and lifted above 'mere humans'. In in, in the inflamed shining glory, his eyes turning from human eyes to snake eyes. He now coldly hates. He is now on the top of the world looking down on all that are beneath him, to him something he scoffs at, mere cattle, apes, animals. In his exaltedness his humanity is lost. Too good for them, them too behind him, he thinks.

The flame that engulfs him being pride in which he loves to dwell for there he is risen up, not like 'them'.

And now he goes among them and lies about his piety and humbleness. Secretly scoffing at every imperfect motion and breath of all around him. He not seeing himself for he is overshined by the bright star, his beloved pride.