u/ForgetfulPizza03

I take full accountability that it is also my fault knowing majority of people in this game are stupid. Every hours of my time is wasted just by playing and cooperating with retarded people. I really hope I can stop this considering addiction once again because it really affects me instead of enjoying leisure time literally.

The stress from this game literally makes me sick where almost every day a consistent lose streak, I get random palpitations, headaches, spasms, and having a full day bad mood just because of playing. Well I can’t and won’t throw tantrums and rage (I love my valuables lol).

At the end of the day, I regret playing hours of this game just to be with stupid people instead of making use of my spare time to something more productive lol.

Good thing is that I don’t spend my money on this game hahaha.

I’ll try to make myself busy as much as possible on other things from now on

Ever since my squad left and play other games, others with other priorities, or something, this game is not enjoyable anymore. This game is just mentally deteriorating me bit by bit. I’m on my nth lose streak and the stress builds it converts into palpitations, headaches, spasms, and frustration. I really can’t deal and get along with stupid people in here lol.

The main problem in this game is that you can’t physically beat the shit out of those dark system players😂😂. Hoping I can sell my account to make it useful for my personal funds hahaha

I’m still living with my parents and siblings and I’m kinda feel like what it’s like to live with a messed up partner with kids. For example, everyday I clean the house before I go/do my academic/personal errands then they wait for me to come home to clean up their mess while I’m out of the house. I don’t have a good relationship with my parents because simple mistakes/small arguments always escalate due to their own stress in work-parent-life-balance. They always randomly rant out that we are very financially short and whenever I complain about something household or family related, parents always lashing out that I have no right to get angry, complain, or even explain myself to them unless I’m starting to have income…

Being a parent with child/children especially in this economy will always crash you out (cortisol always high as fuck)

Good thing that me and my long term girlfriend (that I won’t introduce to my weird and conservative family) just graduated college and will try to have a live-in set up soon as we get a stable job (we really hope for this moment). We don’t want kids and we do have poor family genetics.

Imagine having Musculoskeletal disorders on my family, while type 1 dm and hypertension on her side = fucked up kid (if having one) = too much financial and health demand = stress on our end and the cycle continous and it will get worse for sure

As I end this rant, as a man with a very loving girlfriend, I will cut things down that holds me to become a better person for us bit by bit. I just underwent a vasectomy recently, cut off my coping vices, and soon to cut off my insufferable family. I really love this person and I’m willing cut and change everything for her.

Correct me if I’m wrong, I think it will not be complicated to plan something with your partner if you know each other very well and both of you decided not to have kids. I’m looking forward to our guaranteed child-stress free future🥂