okay for the context,
I (20m) , met a girl (19f) here on reddit while discussing something common, it all started in first week of December or so, we talked on reddit for a week , then switched to discord and finally in feb, we moved to whatsapp, everything was going well until recently..we both are engineering students from same state but different districts..
so , we became the best friends in each other's life, we used to rant and vent out to each other, talk almost everyday except during our exams which we used to communicate to each other before and used to send only check in messages.we used to chat for 2 to 3 hours continuously discuss about almost everything. idk about her, I felt we actually grew a lot closer than friends but not exactly that. we supported each other in our struggle, used to hear each other's day, enjoy a lot.we have never had a vc or a video call or a direct meet. direct meet , we used to plan a lot but because of our conflicting schedules, we haven't met till date. she did mention sometimes that we are friends last month or so.but, we never really felt that way since we had a lot of oversharing and talk about a lot of stuff which platonic friends don't usually do.
what happened recently was that, last Monday, on 20th April, I sent her a check in message if she is doing well and if she reached her hometown safely as she was travelling to her native since she had her uncle's marriage around this Monday. like before, we used to tell each other if we are doing fine and log out fast, I was genuinely concerned about her cause the last time we talked was when she was travelling on bus, I texted her back on last Thursday, another check-in message, but she hasn't read it yet, both are still double ticked.. idk, maybe she might have seen it and ignored or turned on read receipts..
Last week, I felt I was the loneliest person on the whole earth but since I had work to catch, i eventually came out of sadness and started my work.. but I feel worried about her and think about and I feel sad and wonder if she ghosted me..I get it that that marriages are tiring, lack of privacy for chatting but she could've atleast replied that she's doing fine atleast.
tbh, we used to share a ton of stuff which platonic friends normally don't share, we literally shared everything like society, science, philosophy, engineering, love, friendships, government, politics, religion, about our own families, daily random stuff , food and a ton of other stuff and topics.. btw, we both belong to same religion and we both have seen each other's faces once when we shared our pics..
so, I wanted advices from women here on this, on what are your thoughts about this, I'm now feeling like she might've ghosted me , I have already double texted and don't want her to be pressurized or compelled, I also don't want to call her since we haven't had a vc yet. I am worried, a lot about her..and also, I'm worried that she mightve ghosted me and these thoughts are continuously fighting in my head and I'm fin tired thinking about scenarios and cases and really tired.
ps: ( i now remembered that she might be active on reddit but last month she said she deactivated her account )
mods, please don't remove this, like ik it's directly related to this sub but needed help..
thanks a ton for reading until here and taking your time to read till the end..
tldr; met online, talked from dec to April, OP feels she ghosted him.