u/ForestedDeer

Hi jm genuinely looking and putting myself out here, I’m not selling or wasting anyone’s time. I’m currently on 2000mg edibles right now I took them 2 hours ago and they hitting good rn it’s crazy I don’t feel real.

my average day consists of traveling to random places alone and just exploring. Sometimes I take the bus and ride on it for a while till it ends the route and stuff then I just look around. I’m high or lightly drunk most of the time I do this so it’s funner. I’ve been skipping like whole days of school consecutively for awhile to do this but I’m stopping tmr I promise lol

My hobbies consist of running, playing guitar and drums, and art stuff I like paint a lot

hi

I (18F) have had a crush on my cross country coach (32M) since I was 16. I don’t know why I have a crush on my coach who is twice my age and is happily married and has two kids. I never acted on it though I wish I could, but I can’t. I see him as a father figure but most of the times I see it in a more sexual manner but I don’t do anything with him. I don’t have much affection, praise, or parental support in my life, which is why I think I became attached to him. He’s always there for me, acts as a friend, and as a father. I don’t ever leave him alone and I visit him everyday during passing period. Though lately I haven’t been visiting his class since I’ve been on a drug bender and ditching school lately.

I basically feel as if I am in lingo and I cannot touch what I long for since it is not right and he’s already taken. I don’t know how to cope and go about it and move on besides taking like 1000mg of edibles everyday and smoking like half a pack of cigs everyday. I’m about to graduate and I won’t be able to see him again. I was thinking about getting his phone number so I can keep in contact with him in a normal way and stuff cause I’m not ready to part ways with him.

Yesterday I took 1000mgs of edibles and it didn’t do shit except make me tired. Idk how much do I take so it can actually feel good.

Anyway I’m located in Southern California, and I’m headed to Northern California for college in September. Ive been a bum lately constantly high and stuff. Besides being addicted I’m a decent drummer and guitarist. I go to concerts frequently by myself when I’m not broke.

I need to make friends and hopefully stop being alone cause I’m getting tired of the same cycle everyday so if anyone would seriously wanna talk and stuff everyday long term and see where things go send a dm pls, but I would prefer if you are in state so we can meet up eventually.