I took a highly competitive exam five times before finally cracking it, and I went on to receive admits from six top MBA programs, enrolling at an top school in the US. It was an incredibly difficult process, especially while dealing with ADHD and emotional dysregulation. But my ability to hyperfocus and my persistence carried me through.
Now, despite everything I’ve achieved, I feel strangely numb. Alongside ADHD and depression, I’m dealing with thoughts about not wanting to live, and a deep fear of whether I’ll be able to make it in the US. I keep wondering—how will I even begin? Am I ready to start studying in the next 1.5 months?
My body feels heavy and lethargic. I have very little motivation to do anything, and I find myself just sleeping most of the time. Anything related to executive functioning makes me tired.
I thought I would feel happy after getting here, but I don’t.
Would love some advice on my condition. I don't know if it's burnout or depression. Has anyone else felt numb or depressed after achieving a major goal? How did you get through it?”