u/Forced2GetApp

I lost the genetic lottery, I’m possibly on the spectrum, have terrible social skills and I’m in pain a couple of times a week because of some issues with my stomach. I feel like I’m super unlucky in life because of these reasons.

People assume I have an easy life because my father used to be successful in his prime. He was not faithful in his marriage with my mother and left though. And as soon as I he had other kids, he suddenly forgot I exist. Those other kids got to go to private schools, go on expensive vacations, had a car with a driver to take them wherever they wanted. I got none of that so I wonder who really had an easy life.

I’m not living paycheck to paycheck, but I’m not rich either, so I don’t have the money to make up for how unappealing I am or to be able to afford the cosmetic surgeries I have to do just to be treated like I’m a person and not some subhuman thing.

Because of my insecurities, I ended up cutting off the only girl who may have genuinely loved me. I still have doubts about whether she actually felt anything for me though because there’s just no way in hell she actually liked me. Maybe I just seemed like an easy target because of how socially inept I am, or it could’ve been the money since I’m not struggling.

I miss her everyday and think about her all the time. Heck I even see her in my dreams but I feel like it’s too late now. Besides, the moment I stopped reaching out to her, I never heard from her again. So I’m most likely right about her never really liking me and only seeing me as an easy guy to take advantage of. If only I looked better and had more money, maybe then she might’ve loved me for real.

My job make me so unbelievably angry it takes so much effort for me to sit still in my chair without lashing out violently. I feel so mad it’s making my hands shake and making me feel lightheaded.

The dumb customers I have to deal with feel like they’re beneath me. I’m not some genius but these people sure make me feel like one in comparison. The pointless tasks, failing project my company refuses to let go of even after three years of no progress, all of it makes me wanna scream and punch things. I hate this so much. I wish I could leave this job but I can’t since finding another job will be super hard where I live.

This may be a little different from the usual rants but because I was never allowed to be upset or express that I was upset ever when I was a kid, I’m going to throw a tantrum as if I were my child self because he never got to.

Ugh I don’t wanna go to work and be around people who judge me all the time. I don’t wanna answer calls from stupid people who have no idea about anything, but I’m forced to be nice to because they’re a customer. I don’t wanna sit in an uncomfortable chair that feels like it’s slowly killing me.

I just wanna stay at home, play some games, take a nap and relax. I hate working this miserable job where I have to pretend like I care about the rudest people ever. I hate that I occasionally have to see someone I used to have feelings for. I wish I could just stay at home and never have to be around people ever again.