u/Forbidden_Knowledge1

Been feeling really down lately and it seems everyone is meeting someone lately, normally I am fairly fine by myself and even enjoy my solitude.. but I think what I want/need is to share that space WITH someone, I have always wanted my counterpart, a partner to share life with but someone chill and relaxed like me, or if they are more dominant that's fine too I just want to be dragged around everywhere haha I am looking more for lazy folks to lay about with chatting, playing games , I am more of a home body and also struggle with social anxiety so I hope to find someone I can be comfortable with and be myself, I can be funny, talkative for sure just need to find the right person

I want to invest in someone and for someone to invest in me, I have been called handsome and hot at times so I am not bad looking haha I am intelligent, and am also Atheist and struggle a bit with nihilism which can sometimes bring me down, hoping to find a reason to care again ya know? to get that motivation to want to live life again and experience it, feels like I have lost that..

I am mostly a quiet guy I enjoy my peace and comfort, keep things simple and I want for none, I have a LOT of time to myself due to cheap living expenses and being absolutely blessed, I live by myself but family is next door and I truly hope to have someone come over and just spend time with me, I have yet to have anybody over (we recently moved) I am kind of burnt out on posting so this post isn't the best.. things are starting to feel kinda 'pointless' again but I am trying, I have been holding off on posting for a while for multiple reasons the futility of it really.. but I am trying to remain positive, like most things in life you just gotta keep at it ya know?

anyways, I got a few hobbies, gaming, watching shows/movies, music/writing, making games, I am usually distracting myself with SOME project I am a BIG gamer at heart so hopefully someone whose into or cool with that, someone I can just hang with ya know and watch shows, play games and enjoy each others presence and companionship.

I have been called kind, gentle, I am very emotionally intelligent, supportive, big heart but also kinda bad at making the first move.. I am kind of the nervous type not always but until I feel comfortable then I am more open

anyways I will stop it there, hopefully something good happens soon best of luck to everyone out there and hope to chat soon!

Hi everyone thank you for your time, lately I will be honest my mental health has taken a nose dive and I struggle with social anxiety.. I decided to work WITH my struggles instead of against and an online environment where we are actively participating on some activity such as a game is a great way to keep my mind off my discomfort around people.. also my one super close buddy with whom was the only person to consistently reach out to me and game together with and hang out, found a gal.. which I am happy for but I doubt I will ever see him again and it was rare to begin with.

so all in all, I am super lonely, kinda sad and down and I am a gamer at heart and even enjoy working on my own games in Unity.. but yeah, my living expenses are super low so I have a lot of free time and I work for myself as a handyman and set my schedule so I am almost ALWAYS available to game.

I want to have those hilarious moments, those random deep discussions, that freedom to be myself and just be having a great time with someone, a shared experience I hope to find that with somebody on here like I had with my one friend, whom I deeply love, along with my other friends too but with him I was the closest, he was my brother.. I sound like he died or something I guess that is kinda how I feel rn haha

But yeah, I am not big into larger groups and prefer smaller chats like up to 3 max, it helps divy up the convo and eases up the pressure compared to one on one chats.. not to say I am adverse to one on ones but yeah I enjoy Lethal Company, Arkham Knights, Peak, Remnant II, EDF 6, I have yet to try Sker Ritual, I love Species Unknown, Sparking Zero and my latest obsession is Elden Ring Night Reign I REALLY need a partner for that a full crew would be good!

I know Reddit is a bit hit or miss so I will remain positive but realistic, anyways hope to hear from someone soon