So I just broke up with my gf of almost 4 years last night/this morning. Things got heated in an argument and she screamed at me and called me everything I've asked her not to call me, was drinking again which has been a problem for our relationship, and started trying to punch me when I just stopped talking once the screaming started. This is not the first time and if we stayed together o know it wouldn't be the last.
I hate that I took her back after an emotional affair, I hate that I took all her screaming and hitting me over the past year, I hate that im heartbroken, I hate that I love her, but I know we can't stay together. I miss her and her kids and hate that I'll never see them again. I think im done dating. Im 35 and am just tired.