No contact will only make her forget me
She already checked out while we were together. She would tell me she was learning to live without me. I thought it was her losing her anxious attachment but in reality it was her choosing a life alone. If she already detached and tried to experience a life without me, what is the point of no contact? She already knows what’s it’s like. It’s been 3 months and I haven’t heard from her.
She’s gone back with an ex before because he didn’t stop harassing her and I’m worried I need to do the same. I want to call her, follow her on socials, I’d rather get blocked for good than have false hope. Am I not worth getting back with?
I was her first real relationship, her longest, so many trips, gifts, memories. That’s can’t just go away. I feel responsible for not seeing her detach sooner, for not bringing it up and fixing it with her. I feel like I avoided the emotional intimacy necessary to sustain this and now I have to fix it even if I am the dumpee.
This sucks so much and I’m not sure how to handle this.