Lately life just feels… confusing.
I (20M) don’t even know where to start, but I guess relationships are a big part of it. I’ve genuinely loved two people in my life. The first one was clear—she wasn’t interested, and I respected that, even though it hurt.
But the second one(20F) … it’s what really messed with me. I truly felt like there was something there, like she might feel the same. I took my time, built it up in my head, and when I finally decided I’d tell her how I feel… I found out someone else had already proposed to her—and she said yes.
That moment just broke something inside me. It wasn’t just rejection—it was confusion, like “why does this keep happening to me?”
It’s been almost a year, and honestly, I still feel stuck in that moment. Like I haven’t fully moved forward.
I try to act normal, focus on my life, but deep down there’s this constant feeling of being lost and uncertain about everything—love, timing, even myself.
Has anyone else felt like this? How do you actually move on when your mind keeps going back to “what if”?
I’d really appreciate hearing your thoughts.