Okay, so im 16 and my grandma bought me a couple of binders. But i asked for a small (my size) and she got me mediums. at first it was fine because they were better than my old one which was completely not working, but now they're not making me feel any better. and i know that binding isnt to "perfectly flatten my chest" but thats not the problem, the problem is that i feel my chest moving when i walk, they do not bind correctly, i have no money to replace them, and they make me look like i just strapped a small pillow to my chest. And ive hear people say to "look at markiplier" but im not muscular enough for it to pass as pecs even when i adjust, which is at least 1-2 times an hour. and the only thing that makes me feel better is wearing a sweater over my shirt, but its getting too hot outside to keep doing that. And i can't keep going to school when it's 80 degrees outside in a thick sweater (my thinner ones dont make me look flatter), and if i take the sweater off for even a second i feel like im going to vomit because i know my chest isnt flat enough to pass. And i only got the new binders a little over a month ago so if i ask my grandma to replace them she will tell me no, and i cant return them.
I genuinely dont know what to do anymore, my dysphoria is crippling and i cry every time i see my chest and i dont have any solutions that i can think of