First thing first i dont Promote or encourage shoplifting, it just that my situation is complicated right now. but i confess something i've been doing for the past couple of months, which i am not ashamed but a way to materialising my anger on this world that we are living in, but also to survive and remove my hunger.
I am a foreign student in a foreign country (not USA), and i ve been dealing with alot of Bureaucratic procedures issues (i have to renew my stay every year so it really hard for me to be stable).
when i first came in had a good amount of money to stay afloat, it was hard finding but i managed to work a student job for my stay, so i was stable and happy until graduation, where i thought going to a bigger city would allow me to find better opportunities in my field, and i did. but turn out the job sector is terrible everywhere, and even Mc Donalds arent hiring in my area.
And since my visa renewal is near, i went in debt in another field to stay. but this situation made me anxious and upset, because i wanna work i really do, i worked before, there is just nobody calling me for an interview for a basic flexible student job.
i do take food stamps from some local organisations, but sometimes it not enough and i have school hours on the way. so shoplifting became inevitable, i go to stores near me (where i sent my resume 10 times without a reply).
i only take food from big stores never small independant ones, but it got to a point where i dont feel any ounce of guilt for these types of things, when you see the world we are in, the fact that we are governed by pdfs and criminals. trying to be the most responsable citizen just doesnt give you bread on the table anymore, i am just TIRED of all of this, i just wanna live a normal life.
i am not the same person i was before coming to this country, i was fair and always paid my dues when i miss one cent and the owner let me pay back another time. i suppose this is capitalism.