Insecurities w spouse and others
I’m currently 20lbs down from 195 at 5’2” I saw a photo of myself last summer and feel like I looked so much bigger. I feel like I have body dysmorphia when I’m obese, like I didn’t see how big I was. I still fit in the same clothes, they are just loose/fit now but I’m starting to feel awkward with comments I’m getting from people. I don’t like attention on me and I think the weight helped hide me. But one thing is that my husband never comments. I talked about that photo today and he just didn’t say anything. Then I said sorry I got fat (when we met I weighed 125, size 6 pants) and again didn’t respond. He’s always shown attraction to me, but I can see it increasing now. It’s somehow making me feel more insecurity and I’m not sure why. Has anybody else experienced this? I think he’s very careful about saying the wrong thing and I don’t know if I like that he doesn’t comment or not. The most he has said is if I ask if I look different and he said yes very and also when I showed him my weight was almost out of obese category he congratulated me. I don’t really know my point or what I want. Just curious if anybody can relate. Honestly I think he just loves me in all forms which is amazing but why can’t I be content with that. Yes I need to go back to therapy. LOL