Me (22F) and my boyfriend (22M) have known each other since we were 12, we had first gotten together when we were 15, but dated for 3 years before splitting for 3, then getting back together.
Boyfriend has always made me feel comfortable, he was my first and has never made me feel like anything I do isn't enough, or that im forced to do anything. He has constantly made me feel safe and there is no doubt that he finds me attractive or that hes unhappy with our sex life.
Regardless of that, I get nervous around him when we get intimate, not in a way that I feel uncomfortable, more in a way that I want to impress him and make him feel as good as he makes me feel, so I get shy and in my head.
I really want to be more confident, like taking charge, dirty talking, or leading him during it, but everytime I work myself up to, I just get stuck, and I overthink and feel like I'm going to embarrass myself.
I have talked to Boyfriend about this, and we have experimented in me taking charge, or me initiating, but I always revert back to being shy and just letting him take charge.
Can anyone provide anything to help? Or any tips to impress him?