I’m scared
I’m in a loving relationship 5 years now. He’s the love of my life I know that! Right before Christmas time I went through a very stressful period (work, health problems, family issues) and I had some very intense panic attacks (I’ve had panic attacks in the past). During that time the only way I could feel safe was with my boyfriend, he was always my safe place! About a month ago while we were away from home I had intrusive thoughts about my relationship. What if I don’t love him? And right after that intense panic attacks that lasted for a while. I went to see a psychiatrist and he told me that I have anxiety disorder with ocd thoughts about my relationship and I started medication. The first medication I was on helped me but I had some side effects and he gave me a combination of another one that caused my anxiety and the spiralling thoughts to come back more intense so he told me to stop it. Yet I haven’t been able to feel better again. My thoughts are racing my body is feeling like I’m living in survival mode all the time and I can’t enjoy time with boyfriend because I feel scared all the time that I might loose him. Is this going to get any better? I really don’t want to loose him, he’s my family, we’re renovating a house together and I’ve never felt like this in my relationship this past five years. Right before the panic attacks started we were the happiest we’ve ever been! I’m scared! Please any advice would be appreciated!