Hi, just a fellow earth person here.
Wanted to ask a question about life generally, I'm a mid teen who I have no idea if this is happening to others as I don't particularly have many close friends. Recently, its become a reality that one day I will grow old and look back at my past life (even as obvious as it seems, I just shrugged it off before but know its just almost overwhelming), so much so that I want to make my life meaningful and have purpose for some reason.
I do not know why this is the case and I just times where I just want to get on with hobbies/work but these feelings of wanting to be close to just one person (having a healthy stable non platonic relationship) keep persisting and nudging me and I feel I need to pursue someone to feel whole and completed, I understand that theres a normal human urge want to be with others but is there any actual way of managing this, as I do in a way want to find someone but I'm afraid that if they aren't interested in eg my field of work or understand it that it could stop my life goals or, in a way, my destiny, even though I'd feel complete with them but then again I would like to get along with my life and not have a partner- I've seen this with certain people who are very academic and intelligent but they end up with a partner who is very socially advanced (spent a lot of time socialising and not doing a hard science but doing something less academic like art or english and who seem to be less emotionally stable) and it almost seems like if they had someone who was more like them they could achieve more in life, then again people have free will.
I don't mean to cause an argument I just would like general advice for anyone who knows how to manage these feelings (albeit with no external things like por, masterbating etc).
Thank you reddit