u/Flask_Of_Lavender

When I was still trying to convince myself I was straigh, I realized there was a commonality with my supposed male crushes:

Absolutely none of them had any physical draw involved.

While most of my crushes on guys were fictional, I realized my male crushes all fell into one of a few characteristics:

-liking their voice

-admiring their bravery

-having a “I relate to him” or “I can fix him” mentality

-envying their powers/abilities

-sometimes having dark hair I thought looked cool

But there was really no physical draw. They could be floating heads and I’d feel the same. I even remember during high school I’d occasionally look at guys I was friends with, trying to puzzle out why no attraction seemed to be happenin. Logically, I reasoned, it should: dark hair + friendly + shared interests = eventual romance/attraction, right? It took me ages to learn attraction does not work like a math equatio.

Whereas with women, ever since I was around 13, I’d feel a kind of pull in my chest/stomach whenever I’d hear a woman speak in a sensual voice. And I’d feel heated, drawn to look, and shy/guilty about it. Didn’t realize that was what attraction is supposed to feel like until years late.

Can anyone else relate?

Finally got to see Dear Evan Hansen after wanting to for years (I had previously listened to the soundtrack, read the book, and knew the whole plot). And something that the actors did blocking-wise during YWBF had me really curious if it was a Fulton invention or if the blocking was also in the Broadway version.

During the song’s climax, Connor came up behind Larry and comforted him. Seeming to sense his spirit, Larry then broke down crying. Shortly after Zoey was on stage and Connor started to approach her, reaching out but hesitating, and then she ran off. After that, the entire Murphy family came togethe, and Connor joined in in embracing them.

That moment struck me so I need to know, was that blocking in the Broadway play too?

(Fulton Theater’s performance was phenomenal, by the way. The guy playing Evan was the same one who played him in the touring show.)

EDIT: Omitted a detail I forgot to add last night.