u/FlamaDeTitan

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hi, I'm a teenager. 15 yrs-old. All my life has been so easy, so boring. I have an IQ of 130. Since the kindergarten ppl told me in elementary school everything will change, then in high school everything will be harder. In the contests I've taken, always first place. Almost all categories: Oratory, Mathematical Olympics (idk if that's the name in English, isn't my first language tbh), writing, reading, tests... It's a ****, I can't fit in any place, I've met a lot of people, but I never could find somebody that understands me. I have no more than two friends, and I can't talk about the things I'm into with them. At least they try to understand me. I just wanna be normal.

Today, a teacher just told me that I should skip high school, that I don't belong there. I got out of class and went to the bathroom just to cry, and I wrote this in the floor:

"why can't I just be normal?

I'm not gifted. I'm cursed. What kind of terrible God would let a world with rules, with bureaucracy, tell us that we (the gifted one') are the smartest, and then **** we all? Why do they fit and I don't? Why is it so normal for them? Why they can follow? Why is everything just obeying? Am I the problem? I cannot change the way things are. Really I can't?

Am I blind? I'm a fool! That is... not true. I am not. That's the problem. I'd rather be stupid. At least they have no problem with people or authorities.

WHY THE **** THEY DON'T SEE ANYTHING? DO I HAVE GOOD SIGHT? OR THEY ARE KINDA SO BLIND?

I don't care about anything, I just wanna be normal. Could I? What is my ****** ******* problem? Really, God help me, I need to know, why did you give me a gift, made me a gifted, and then put me in the worst place to be it?

I am a thought-criminal. A divergent. But I don't wanna be both of it. Could I change? Apply? I've tried. I SWEAR I'VE TRIED. I JUST CANNOT. WHY, LORD, WHY?

I just wanna be normal."

Anyways, thanks for reading.