I’ve been a stay at home mom for two years and now trying to find a job. While fixing my resume and applying for several jobs. I am getting denied each time. I feel like because of the two year gap no one wants to hire me.
I have been in College those two years off so I’m not just sitting around and doing nothing at home. I will get my associates soon and I’m proud of that. I will stay in school as well if I somehow get employed.
Anyways why do I feel like a failure? I should be so happy that I had the chance to stay home with my baby in the most vulnerable time of their life. But I can’t help but feel useless in the working field I guess. My husband continued work, even got promoted multiple times since we had our daughter.
Is it weird to feel useless? I don’t know why it’s always women whose careers suffer and everything else that comes along with having a baby? This makes me rethink ever having another child. There is no balance it’s either you care for your child when they’re small or you send them to be cared for by strangers.
Anyways this whole post is just to see if there are other mothers who have felt this way. I’m feeling like a failure and I’m having anxiety about the future. I also don’t want to keep depending on my spouse forever. I want to have a retirement plan and career for my future and child’s.