It's been 9 months since I have been in a relationship with this girl in class .. she is from my class .. initially it seemed perfect untill she told about her ex who didn't treated her right .. I am a kind of guy who didn't wanted a girl with a past relationship before me it's my personal preference and she also knew it but denied it until on day she thought of opening up .. it shattered me inside out . My hands where shaking idc whether I am weak or just can't accept the fact that she was with somebody else before me... I know myself that I can never handle that someone was before me .. Still I said it's Ohk everthing is fine .. she told me this in the 3rd month of our relationship urghh ..it's 9 months now things weren't smooth and I just assume that everything is normal maybe maybe not .. this girl hates men
..justifying that a cousin sexually assaulted her in her childhood .. I took care of her like a baby .. I feel like I gave everything to this relationship and she is just giving her bare minimum.. I have never raj behind lust .. I just ask for love and that's it I have also confronted it to her but still thebsame old fights for the silkuest reason ever existed .. gas lighting .. emotion games .. I think I am. Fucked I am in trap with accessible exit doors but I can't leave it because I love her.. I don't feel like a priority . Didn't asked for the first priority but atleast prioritize me a little ..and she says she wanna marry me .. I think my life is f**cked now ... What do you think