only 5 months are left till I start my major in Electrical Engineering, and I have to say even though this gap year was unintentional, I really grew as a person and learned more about myself and improved overall. During this "break" I finally got C2 in German, I worked on some projects related to embedded systems(taking a break for now because it does sometimes feel like work). And I developed this good habit of reading for at least 4 hours per day on any subject that interests me(cooking, nature, politics, you name it). And never have I been so physically active like nowadays(gym 6 days per week, cardio almost daily).
However I realized I was living the whole time financially on barely 1k€ per month(my parents finance my blocked account with 12K€ per month), even tho it covers everything needed(food, rent, 100€ savings on the side per month). It would be nice to work some kind of full-time/part-time job and earn around 1-2,5k € extra, may as well finally cover my emergency fund, and get a new desktop(around 1,5k€), the rest(around 6k€) can be saved for anything.
For the first 4 semesters I was assured by my parents that they refill my blocked account every year with 12k€, so I really am sort of privileged and can really spend the next 5 months and upcoming 4 semesters not working and focusing on uni/my career. May as well work on projects related to my field later on during my bachelor and actually land an internship(relevant to my field) instead of having to work in some sort of gastronomy/part-time job, just to survive month after the other.
I really don't want to trade my precious time during these 5 months, because the past 3 years or so I was really focused on school and it was really intense, adding to that the fact I had to learn the language of the country I currently immigrated to, and on the side having to endure a toxic environment for more than 10 years of my life.
I feel free for the first time since I was born, I can do anything I want without being pressured from my family, being guilt-tripped when I am not doing something "productive"(it got so bad, that I actually felt guilty enjoying my time with friends or doing something "unproductive" to enjoy myself). The past months really helped me reflect on my life in many ways, I started reading more and more, and never have I felt better(physically, mentally, socially).
I am curious to what you guys/girls would do if you were me, I have a feeling that once I start studying money will come one way or another, and it would be more wise, if I take the remaining time to live life without having to work for someone but rather for myself :).
Tl;dr: 5 months left till I start my bachelor, don't really want to work because I want to use the remaining time to grow as a person and mentally prepare for my upcoming bachelor in EE. However I am not sure if I am taking the correct decision or not.