r/gapyear

So the thing is i know there's only about a short amount of time left until college decision day and I should be sure where i should go or do but honestly I've went through a crap ton of problems that pushed me to depression and even bigger issues in my relationship with the family. I've moved to the US for almost a decade now and I'm no longer eligible for any aid because my family's income is now middle class and I also haven't gotten any scholarships at all since I couldn't find any or that they're going to announce the winners way too late.

Embarrassing to admit but I only gotten into one college, Towson, but I really dont wanna go there because I don't want my parents to be in debt since at the same time they just spent a large amount on getting a new house. A while back I was told that if I choose to go to CC (which is literally way cheaper) then I will not get any support from my parents because they're too scared I'll have to stay for an extra semester or year since I really want to pursue Chemical engineering and then transfer into UMD (which is mostly guaranteed to get into rather than transfer from TU). My relationship with my family is honestly terrible and it just gets progressively worse each year as I'm getting older. They don't want to listen to my side of the story and kept on pushing their ideology onto me which I really can't understand them anymore.

Now that I'm told that if i can't decide or choose their path then after graduation I'll have to work and if I still want to attend college then I'll find my source of income on my own. Honestly I've been thinking about doing so but I don't know where to start when I really want to start working as soon as summer comes plus I still want to attend CC after 1 year of working and saving up if that's even possible. I'm currently 17, turning 18 by the end of this year and I hope to move out as soon as I'm old enough. I hope this reaches to the people that are or were in the same situation as I am and hopefully there are tips I could learn from.

Sorry about the rant and thank you in advance for your help!!