Most people who I have been friends with in the end always ended up treating me like shit, no matter if it was using me, talking over me, insulting me, treating me like garbage, or outright telling me to get r4ped and calling me the n-word because I confronted them over being insensitive and making jokes about terrible themes.
I dont think I have ever had a friendship where the other person viewed me as a human being. I was always the one who had to write a paragraph to tell the other person I dont wanna be around them anymore, but somehow also the one who got hurt the most. Ever since I have had extremely toxic friendships that drained the life out of me for multiple months, I have been very cautious and have been ending friendships faster.
Tbh, I dont even think I have had anybody in my life who didnt treat me like shit. That includes my parents and the people I always thought I could trust the most. Nobody has ever really been correct for me. Am I doing something wrong? Am I the asshole?