Is he always going to haunt me?
It’s just hit 6 months since he broke up with me. We were together for 3 years and it truly came out of no where. We haven’t spoken in 5 months when I asked him if we could talk so I could understand why he did this and he refused. Shortly after that it was christmas/his birthday so I reached out then but had no response. Around a month ago I sent him a letter basically giving myself closure, I don’t know if he read it but I needed to send it. He still has my stuff, I still have his and I have been working up the courage to ask for mine back.
I have hungout with a guy for the past 2 months who was a fling prior to my relationship. He’s nice but he’s not him. I have also been talking to a different guy who’s again great but not him. You know that Katy Perry song where it’s like when I’m with him I am thinking of you, well that’s been my life. I think it’s just hard when you spend 3 years of your life having someone be your partner, best friend, just simply your person then out of no where they are not.
I would like to say I am relatively healed, yes I think of him each day but I haven’t cried in a while. I have a new routine, new friends, new hobbies, new things in general. But I always feel like I am missing something, like I am missing a part of me. I don’t know really know how to explain it, I just miss him. I don’t know if it’s because the book isn’t fully closed as he still has my stuff or what.
I think a lot of people here 6 months and think wow that’s so long but 6 months to 3 years is nothing. I guess I am bringing this here for some advice. I know it takes time but is he always going to haunt me like this? I don’t know if any of this makes sense but hopefully someone can relate.