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I think what gets me confused and still triggered after a couple years after leaving him, is his sudden shift from the active addiction to going to church, especially with the influence of the new relationship. He never had a desire to go with me, as much as I tried to get him to stop and get help. He kept the worst of his addiction hidden from his ex wife, but chose to engage me in it. When I left, he contacts me to recommend this pastor and non denominational Christian church that gives good sermons. We're both raised Catholic. I was an active church goer, but he didn't like the Catholic Church, because they didn't let him "be himself" with his tendencies. Later I find out this is the Christian church of the woman he had cheated on me with. I saw him recently, and he's still going to church with her. No apologies or remorse from him for how he acted with me. It hurts knowing he can so quickly drop that identity and appear clean shaven going to church with her now. I know it seems twisted I should feel bad. I should feel happier that he's away, but it's the memory of his behavior is what haunts me.