I was with my ex for 6 years. We started dating when we were 18. He yelled at me a lot, but the physical incidents were pretty tame all things considered. Never left any marks, hit me on my face but it wasn't hard.
A year later, I'm not sure it was worth it. Dating new people has been really shitty. I feel more hurt from them than I did from my ex. I still talk to him and hes so sweet and kind to me now, and cares about me more than any of the guys im interested in.
I feel like everyone around me is getting the relationships and the life changes I want. I can't believe I gave up something that seems impossible to find now.
But ultimately, I think im tired of my mood being so effected by the men in my life. But I'm so lonely.
u/FitCounty4409 — 12 days ago