u/FitCommunication7042

simple question i know, but for so so many reasons i simply to not like my mom. what do you get someone that hits your dog? what do you get someone that body shames you and destroys your relationship with food? what do you get someone that threatens to hit you if you don’t go for a run? i stress myself out thinking of a gift for her and only now stopped to ask if she even deserves it. what does anyone do in these situations? do you ever get over it, or just keep biting your tongue and act as if she was ever loving to you?

how’s everyone doing with the news of hantavirus?
i feel like my body is shutting down. covid largely contributed to the onset of my ocd, and i don’t know if i can go through this again.

today i was home alone, and i live with my parents, my sibling, and my dog. earlier while everyone was gone i heard footsteps upstairs, my room is right below my parents room so i figured they were home, i went upstairs and no vehicles were in the driveway, i called for my dog and of course, it was her walking around upstairs. i go upstairs to make sure she wasn’t making a mess or getting into something she shouldn’t have. i go into my parents’ room and step on something wet. i look down and it’s a used condom. i want to cry, i hop downstairs and wash my foot with hot water and so so so much soap. i shower after as well. and later today i am in bed watching a show to take my mind off of this disgusting incident, when my dad tells me he’s going to borrow my handheld bissell wet vacuum. i figure someone spilled a drink in the living room and say okay. and then i hear the vacuum from the room above me. my parents’ room. i swear to god they used my vacuum to clean up semen. i just finished crying about the thought that my vacuum is garbage now because there is no way in hell i’m using that again. i told my friend about this and she said “well as long as it’s clean” which is just not the case for me. that was MY vacuum and now it’s forever dirty and i can’t use it. i have to throw it away and i’m just so mad that they thought this was okay. when they know now my issues with things like this ESPECIALLY BODILY FLUIDS. does anyone have anything that could possibly make me feel better because i’m just so grossed out and this makes me want to peel my skin off, it’s like it’s on me and i can’t escape WHY did they do this so fucking gross