u/Fine_Silver7897

I (F23) have this friend who also used to be one of my teachers (F48) and just less than a year ago we gained contact and what started as just checking in on each other occasionally has led to us being friends and me having this massive crush on her that I can't control. we talk every day, we only see each other every few months, we do have a lot in common, and her personality is out of this world and we vibe good together. we are both married to men, neither of us are bi or gay, so I'm very confused on what I'm feeling. sometimes I feel like what I feel is real and other times I feel it's just in my head since we do have a connection and are a lot alike and her personality just attracts me. but she is constantly on my mind, everything I think about somehow goes back to her. I feel genuinely confused and conflicted on what I'm feeling. am I weird? is there an explanation for this? is this normal? help.