u/Fine_Impress6185

I (18F) moved to a different country and I had family members there who took care of me while I moved into my Uni. I was out of high school and felt out of place because of the new culture I was suddenly thrust into. iIt was pretty lonely being the outsider of the group and always stuck between jokes I had bow clue about. They didnt really ou tin the effort to include me either. Later I had this weird conversation with my cousin that led to me knowing she wasn't a feminist. She talked about it like it was something that personally offended her while driving to car, owning a bank account and having a job. I'm usually pretty vocal on my opinions but wanted to find something in common with her so I lied. I told her "yea same.. I just care about justice you know". At that point I think I wanted to just fit in till I got outta there.

I also realized she was trying to push that title on me while knowing our relatives did think that feminism is ridiculous. The entire situation felt off and I felt my survival skills pushing in to deny that my ideologies were in fact pretty feminist.

I felt stupid after and also realized I had the tendency to play along with other people to not be excluded or harmed. I feel I've learned how to do that while still actually letting the other person know my exact position on this situation without disrespecting them. I've lost friends but I found more people to connect to and friends I love.

I don't know why it made think of why she was trying to make me into a feminist while she herself like claimed not to be one?!! especially knowing how our family thought it was all bullshit....

Did she have my best interests in mind?

Ps : I did try contacting her after moving out but she never responded, am I thinking too much into this??

The other day, my friend and I were talking, as always, and she told me, “It doesn’t even matter. We’re all going to die anyway.” And I noticed something after that: almost every person around me has been saying the same thing.

At what point does an entire generation become so exhausted that saying things like that sounds normal?

Everywhere around me, I hear hopelessness. I see the injustices happening in the world, even in this new age where we were supposed to know better. Why are we still trying to revert back to times where there was no social equality, where people did whatever they pleased, where freedom only existed for certain groups while everyone else suffered beneath them?

We may not wear chains the same way people once did, but many of us still feel trapped inside systems we cannot escape.

And as an advanced civilization, as people who are supposed to be more evolved than the generations before us, why is it becoming harder just to find a place to stay or enough food to eat? Why is simply living becoming so difficult? Surviving is one thing, but living should mean more than constantly fighting to stay afloat.

This was not the world our generation was promised years ago. Growing up, it was supposed to be an era of peace and unity, where people came together regardless of race or religion. Instead, those very things are now pushing people further apart and closer to the edge.

What happened to us? Did we forget what it means to be human? Or does humanity have another description I don't know about?