I really need to hear from people who understand this because I feel like I’m losing myself a little.
We’ve been trying for 5 months. I know that medically it’s still considered “normal,” and logically I know many couples take longer, but emotionally I feel exhausted.
Every month I convince myself maybe this is it. I symptom spot, track everything, analyze temperatures, overthink every cramp and every feeling in my body. Then I get a negative test and completely spiral.
I’ve become anxious, emotional, exhausted, and honestly I don’t even recognize myself sometimes anymore. Pregnancy announcements hurt. Seeing friends get pregnant hurts. I feel guilty even typing that because I want to be happy for people, but TTC has changed me mentally.
I feel like my whole life is becoming centered around cycles, DPOs, waiting, hoping, and disappointment. I don’t know how to stop thinking about it.
How do you cope with this emotionally?
How do you stop TTC from consuming your whole mind and identity?
Did anyone else feel this affected mentally even in the “early” months?