So I'm sure this won't matter in the grand scheme of things, once the postpartum wave passes and things hopefully fall into place but I'm 3 days PP, my newborn constantly cluster feeds at the breast and my husband has had to step in for pretty much everything related to my 19 month old. Meals, play, bath, bed etc. I also can't really put my newborn down and she's really attached so I've started just wearing her around the house..
My toddler is obviously dealing with big feelings as this is the biggest change in her little world, but now she constantly asks for daddy, runs away from me, and wouldn't let me give her a bath tonight. I'm so heartbroken..after I gave birth all I thought of was her, our routine, our days together as I'm a SAHM, and now I just feel so disconnected from that time, like it was another lifetime ago. My newborn obviously needs me, I'm thankful my husband can fully step in and make our toddler happy, I just didn't expect to feel so much grief and I guess I'm just worried that there's a wedge in our bond and I don't really know how to navigate everything I'm feeling because I feel so silly being this upset by it. My toddler is her own person and needs all the support and love, but I am so freaking down... is this hormones? Or a real thing I'm sensing? I don't even know what I'm looking for on here, maybe other mamas have experienced something similar and can tell me there's a light at the end of all of this.