Hi guys, so when I was in class 9, a new student moved to our school. He was one of my friend's cousins so I knew him a little and therefore we vibed naturally. We became really good friends. At that time, most of my friends were in a relationship and i have never been in one so naturally they tried to ship us together(me and that guy).
I was not against it as honestly I did like him too. He was very cute and smart(literally a maths wizard) and I am attracted to intelligence. I liked him and i confessed to him. He didn't say no but also not yes. That was the problem, he never said anything. Every time people teased us, he would just smile. He would smile at everything that included me so I was genuinely confused as to whether he liked me or not.
This lasted for almost 2 years and then covid happened. By then I had gotten tired of this uncertainty and even bashed my friends for teasing so, they stopped.
That guy and I lost contact pretty much, we would maybe talk once a year barely that too because he was my friend's cousin.
Now, the other day I was talking to that friend, just catching up and he told me how that guy always liked me back then. To which I was pretty okay because I too thought so. Then my friend told me that that guy still likes me! It's been 7 years and he never uttered a word. He kept it all to himself and didn't reciprocate my feelings back then. And now he might confess.
The problems here:
I am not one bit interested in dating right now or even in the near future. I wanna finish my study and get out of this country asap.
he is not the guy I liked anymore. I liked him because he was smart but now 7 years later, he is an unambitious lazy man who works in corporate.
I am trying to build a life here where men like him wouldn't even exist. I cannot be with a man who never took a stand for me or even his own feelings and is happy to waste all his potential and settle for less.
I am clear in my head about all this but it's not as easy as it looks because I once liked him a lot and we have a common friend circle.