25F and family planning
Hi
Ever since turning 24 I have suddenly started feeling…I do not know old and childish at the same time. I started my corporate job and got into a relationship. However, I have also started to feel the desire to start a family. I started viewing women with husbands and children with envy. My current boyfriend (27M) expressed an interest in starting a family „one day” but right now nothing scares him more than me potentially falling pregnant. At some point his fear actually irritates and insults me a bit. He believes he is not far enough in his career to consider starting a family. However, he also gets very existential and believes he is behind in life. I do not feel behind in life in terms of finances and job, but I do feel behind in terms of family planning. I am also not reckless enough to baby trap him and risk it all in the name of my baby fever.
Also to give context, my boyfriend is British and we live in the UK where people generally start family later. However, I am from a more conservative background and family are raising their eyebrows at my relationship that doesn’t seem to be going into any direction- as in marriage (but we have been together about 2 years and marriage is not as rushed in the UK as in other countries / cultures).
I do sometimes wonder whether my desire to start a family comes from genuine desire or just boredom. My corporate job is repetitive and boring, my annual leave is limited and the city I live in is rather dull (we live outside of London). Perhaps I should experience life outside of my dull city and 9-5 but I am a bit scared of taking the risk and losing my savings on, let’s say, travelling or moving abroad.