Hello all. I am 19f currently living on a college campus. I recently had a sexual encounter with my fwb and I am very distressed.
our situation is complicated. Our friendship advanced into something sexual after he sexually assaulted me when I was drunk and I didn’t cut him off after that. He has continuously been pushing the boundaries since then. It’s hard for me to define our situation because it has since evolved into semi-consent, as I have had sexual encounters with him while sober that I enjoyed. Throughout this whole period I have made it very clear that I did not want to have sex.
today he came over to engage in sexual activities. Last time we had met, I was extremely drunk and he had penetrated me. I wasn’t sure if it counted as sex or not because the memories are fuzzy. I would like to consider it as not sex because I don’t remember. But the same thing happened today. He penetrated many times even when I would push him out. He never went in all the way. it was very shallow, but penetration nonetheles. he did not wear a condom and he eventually stopped, and told me that we needed to buy birth control.
does this count as sex? I really didn’t want to have sex with him and I’m frankly extremely worried that this counts as sex. Please be honest with me.