so me and my girlfriends relationship is very unstable and fragile, I struggle alot with communication and telling her if somethings not okay and thats what led up to this.
Yesterday I was with hanging out with her and her best friend at a cafe and I wasnt feeling so well. she tried texting me asking if something was wrong and felt bad for me, I couldnt bring myself to say why I felt so bad at the time and wanted to wait till she got home to tell her why I felt uncomfertable. Then I told her I felt unwell and ran away abruptly, she kissed me twice and I just leaned away. I couldnt do it because I felt unwell and uncomfertable.
Also her best friend hates me and I always feel unwelcome or out of place when Im hanging out with her. so I panic even more
she kept touching my ass in public and I wasnt really okay with it and couldnt bring myself to tell her that even if she knew it was too much later on. I diddnt communicate well enough here but after we got home she was extremley upset with me, shes freaking out alot and last night she lashed out at me for making her look like a fool because I diddnt communicate on how i felt uncomfertable and diddnt say goodbye properly making her look stupid. this has happend before where I suddenly run away. shes tired of it but I dont know her best friend despises me and has been vocal about it alot.
Anyway shes upset with me and completley losing it and what can I even do here, she thinks I hate her and I keep repetedly trying to tell her I dont, and she thinks nothing adds up at all when I try to say anything because I think shes splitting again.