How to be less passive with my life.
I am a very passive person that the only one he does with his life is nothing. I only watch YouTube, listen to music all day or watch anime.
I leave my responsibilities for the end every time, and that causes me a lot of problems, I may repeat the year because procrastination, I just leave everything for at the end.
I struggle to study, and I feel anxious every time I do it, but not just the normal amount, but in a way where I will just feel it over all my body, and sometimes I will sweat (a little bit) and I just can't concentrate and will avoid it. So bad grades.
I forget everything I study after some time, like if I put myself to study at 9:00 a.m, at 8:00 p.m I don't remember anything or it's just I have to redo it all again.
I am also the type of person that never talks to people socially, or just prefers to be alone. Never gives an opinion, never decides anything, doesn't have social skills and I am very retarded understanding social settings.
I also have a problem where I live more in my head rather than in reality. This happens a lot and more with social settings and when I am bored or I don't really follow the conversation.
I don't have high expectations of myself or just have them, i don't understand why I should have them if they only cause dissatisfaction. So I think I live without them.
I also for some reason I don't take care of myself, I don't brush my teeth having caries, I don't study and I let people walk over me, like if people say that I am dumb I just say okay, or just well I am dumb.
I also don't really understand if I like what I picked anymore to study, I have very bad grades even if I like it, does that make logic? Because I don't really know if I picked because I wanted or just because I have to.