u/Fickle_Reveal_215

Basically what the title says. I recently got a 55 mark back on a 3rd year undergrad English Lit essay, and I got pretty critical feedback. It kinda made sense, and I don't want to point fingers at people to avoid responsibility for refining my own work. But I felt so mad at my teacher, and I keep on thinking about how good I used to be at writing before things slowly got worse, and before I found out about my dad's affairs when I snooped on his phone. A few days after my parents' wedding anniversary by the way. I used to get above 70 (First class) in multiple essays, and getting below 60 used to be quite rare. I just feel so worn out and ready to be done with uni work, but I can't seem to do anything properly. I'm so slow at writing now, and I often space out at my screen not being able to do the regular process of writing continuously with regular breaks. I will have bursts of motivation that will last a few minutes, and then my brain just stops working and I get brain fog. I really don't want a bad mark after that much work during the degree. I told my mum, and he still doesn't know that we know because they never do anything about their problems. How can I make the final push? I know I might never be the same person. And I'm not stupid, but lately I feel like I've become more so. I also don't want to do essay resits in the summer like i did last year, but maybe that's my only option. I have my dissertation (8k words), then a 4k word assignment, and 3 2k word assignments to do after that, and then I'm done with uni for good.