u/Fickle_Button_164

(Tagged nsfw for a reason ok you’ve been warned)

(M15 if it matters idk)

Sometimes I kind of sympathise with my groomer’s actions. I often see people saying they fantasise about being groomed again but sometimes I fantasise about being on the other side of things. There’s just something about the idea of having that kind of power over someone else, especially after what you were used to was having all sense of control taken away from you as a kid. I only ever hear people talking about this the other way around so I feel pretty sick for feeling this way.

I would never actually groom a kid. I’m only really attracted to older men/women so I couldn’t see that happening, I’m ONLY talking about the thought of it, however that being my only justification for why I wouldn’t be able to makes me wonder if I could do it if that was different.

I guess that’s all it really is, I do love him of course and that’s part of it too obviously but I can let go of people that I love. The reason I can’t let go of him is because most of the time even people who I love don’t accept me including both my identity as a whole and my struggles. I used to think it was just because I love him but really it’s because he makes me feel loved and accepted.