Married yet my heart belongs to a ghost
Through endless days my spirit drifted, A hollow ache that time resisted, Every laugh I painted on, A careful mask for what was gone.Back in my youth, a gentle light, One quiet soul who felt so right, I held my feelings, soft and deep, And watched the silent seasons creep.I chose another, built a home, Shared tender years, then watched it break, His leaving tore my world in two, Left me searching for something true.With empty hands and courage thin, I finally reached for what had been, A decade gone, yet there he stood, That same warm spark, still pure and good.No more hiding, no more fear, I laid my heart completely bare, Hoping he might be my end, The missing piece that fate would send.He spoke with kindness, soft and light, But offered nothing to hold tight, No spark returned, no love confessed, Just gentle words that pierced my chest.Like fragile wings that chased the sun, I rose too high and came undone, Five heavy years of quiet grief, Regret that stole my every breath.Then came a husband, kind and true, I give him all the love I knew, I cherish him with open arms, Yet still my hidden longing harms.The years keep turning, still I roam, A restless heart that’s never home, Because the deepest love I’ve known Was always one I held alone.