u/Few-Comparison7524

It seemed easy in the beginning of NC. All I could think of were the bad things and the abuse and how awful he was to me..I never wanted to see him again. Suddenly, maybe it's dating again, I can only remember our crazy connection (which i know was fake), how he made me feel, how in love I thought we were. There were only very few happy moments and yet these are all I suddenly remember and I cant stop thinking about him and wanting to reach out. So many months later. What the hell is wrong with me and my brain?