Starting residency soon, and I was just wondering how this is in residency. I know you still study, you still do Banks, etc., but how do you guys keep track of this and stuff learned on the job? ? I've used Anki in med school, and took notes as well, but I was curious how you do so in residency
So I realized I'm most likely asexual a few months ago because I've just never felt sexual attraction to anyone. The thing is, I still experience strong romantic attraction as well as aesthetic attraction, so I didn't think I was ace before then because I confused the concepts. Anyway, now that I understand it better, since then, it feels like my brain is trying to trick me now. Like, in the past, if I saw someone I thought was attractive, I'd recognize it, and see them like looking at a painting or something, but nothing more. However, now, if I see someone that I think is pretty or beautiful, it feels like my brain is trying to be like "Okay, are you really asexual though? Try thinking about them naked or having sex with them." And whenever this happens, it feels like I end up trying to think about it just to make sure I'm asexual, and though I keep telling myself I find it disgusting and am not interested, my brain keeps saying "Are you sure though?" and keeps trying to think about it. I dunno if this makes sense or not, but it's annoying because I know for a fact I don't think about sex with anyone and have no interest in it, but now that I established that, it feels like my mind is constantly trying to disprove that and think about sex even though it never really happens and I don't have any interest in it at all. Anyway, I know for a fact I don't feel sexual attraction, but I'm kind of tired of these mind games