I make rude comments and I don’t know how to stop
I wanna preface this by saying I’m in therapy and this isn’t a ‘every conversation’ issue, it’s more like once a month it’ll happen, maybe more maybe less
I’ve always had incredibly severe social anxiety ever since I was a kid, and I’m now on depressants to help with it- which has done tons for my mental health! But at a cost
I was a really quiet kid and shut down in certain conversations - and now I find myself worried that I won’t get the last word in
Despite my medication my anxiety is still bad; my friend will be talking and maybe I’ll get annoyed at something they do like interrupt me to make the point I was going to make - or they say something that they meant to be well intended but it was wrong. This could also happen if something I expected goes the other way (I believe this one is due to my adhd & suspected autism but that’s not an excuse!)
I find myself quickly and without thinking reacting by getting upset and making a harsh rude comment.
I apologize after alot and take full blame & responsibility, but I know these people still don’t deserve it.
My therapist said to take things slower, I’ve been trying to but the other day I made one of these comments again and I feel awful for it.
I react without thinking; anytime I don’t make these comments I’m super understanding, supportive, and try my best to be a good friend - I just get so quick to defend myself and get a word in and I hate this reactive habit I have
Does anyone have any tips?