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▲ 14 r/exjw

F18 pimo seeking advice about what to do next

I'm still fully dependent on my parents, I immigrated to another country with them 3 years ago and still can't work due to the lack of documentation, plus I'm over with school in a few months but because of the same issue I'll prob not be able to sign in for higher education, which also cuts off the path for my legalization thru the studies

I'm baptized since I was 9 and have been pimo for about 5 to 6 years, I feel like I'm crumbling every passing day into this religion and my parents keep pushing me to do stuff in the org I can't bear for much longer honestly

logically speaking I know I need to handle it for a bit longer in order to stay safe, but all the psychological damage is getting dangerous too, it shows on my body physically atp, not to mention all the really strong pills I'm into for years and every other time I ended up on the hospital because of my mental health

If anyone has smart things to say like this community always does, I'd gladly take them into consideration, I'm not sure what's the wiser thing to do or how to turn each option the safest it can be currently

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u/Feisty-Swordfish-533 — 5 days ago
▲ 1 r/Tarotpractices

I don't know who my spiritual guide is, I've been told before it's not the time for me to know yet and it'll show up when they think they're supposed to

unfortunately I can't take it off my mind lately for some reason so I kept doing readings and trying to communicate with them

today I've only been able to take one card out before the deck fell off my hands and it was the 9 of pentacles

assuming the question, it prob means I should built up myself better, that I still have room to grow and must work on some sort of self fulfillness or independence before I connect with my guides, maybe they know id get too reliant considering my current mindset

well, I kept pushing tho and as I said the deck fell off and only some cards were facing up

the joker, ace of swords and 10 of swords, wands and hearts

what does that mean? those cards altogether don't really feel settling... did I piss them off or smth?

u/Feisty-Swordfish-533 — 15 days ago
▲ 2 r/Tarotpractices

I did a spiritual cleansing that pointed to a strong negative energy that a specific person was directing towards me.

all the cards basically follow the same questions: who is it and why would they do that

here's my own interpretation:

feels like someone had high expectations on me and is slowly understanding they are losing their control over it and who they wanted me to be, that being said, whoever it is, they put a real effort on me and now are realizing it all lead to nothing, they seem to be recluded into their own frustration and dissatisfaction, but still letting their emotions lose its balance, maybe unconsciously caging me onto fitting the frame, not giving up despite knowing it's a lost battle and from all that comes the negativity surrounding me

u/Feisty-Swordfish-533 — 18 days ago