I’ve tried like 20+ times over the last 10 years but man I’m fucking done. I know I hate it at this point. Whether or not weed has actually been the cause for my complete lack of motivation and willingness to gaf about anything meaningful in life, I’ve convinced myself it has, so I’m done. And the fact that it has such a hold on me makes me want to quit the most. It’s ridiculous…I drink occasionally, but I’ve never wanted drink daily or even multiple times a week. I don’t do any hard drugs. I have a pretty good paying job for my area and take care my bills…but I have hardly any social life at all. I haven’t dated in fucking years, with no real drive to find someone other than “it would be nice”. My self esteem Is in the toilet.
Idk it feels dumb as fuck to get on here and “proclaim this”, and I literally never post on Reddit. But I just want to quit so bad and maybe writing it out will help.