Na-influence ako ng friend ko gumawa ng yearly playlist based sa mga ganap ko. Ang saya balikan ng old playlists kasi ramdam mo talaga yung emotional rollercoaster ng bawat taon.
Di pa nangangalahati ng taon nakabuo na agad ng OST
I dreamed about you again. Why won’t the world let me forget you?
I loved being with you. Seeing you, hugging you, kissing you. I loved every bit of it. Everything felt so easy, so light. It felt like nothing really mattered when I was with you.
But then I learned something about you, something you never told me. And it broke something in me. Why? Why didn’t you tell me?
What I felt was real. Is that why it hurts this much? Is that why every waking moment feels so heavy?
I was never a religious person, but lately I find myself praying every night. Asking God to help me forget, to help me move on because it’s been so hard. Part of me wants to hear your explanation. I want to know what you would say. But another part of me is scared, scared that it will only hurt me more.
I ghosted you because I didn’t know what to say. The pain was too much, and I felt betrayed. I’m sorry for disappearing like that, but I didn’t know how to stay.
I really thought, “Ah, eto na yon. Siya na nga.”
Would it be too much to ask God for healing? I know I’m not His strongest soldier. But why does it feel like I’m always placed in situations like this?
Bubba, I miss you so much.