Too scared to fall asleep
This might be kind of long, but I've been struggling my entire life with sleeping and would like some advice or tips. I grew up in a large family, so I'm used to someone always being in the house. Never had to get used to sleeping in an empty house, alone. Now as an adult I can't sleep unless my partner is home, which is difficult as we have different schedules. I've tried all kinds of things, meditation, yoga, teas, supplements, otc sleep aids, noise machines/fans, you name it. I just have a very intense fear that I'm in danger, someone is going to break into my house, or someone is right outside my door. I have to have a light on in the hallway at all times so I can see if someone is standing outside my door. I feel crazy, I'm so tired all the time. I struggle to fall asleep and when I do I struggle to stay asleep, and end up waking up often unable to fall back asleep. Staring at my door.