TW! mentions of suicide and SH.
me and my boyfriend have been together for 8 months now. I’ve known him since 8th grade and we’re in 10th grade now. He’s a trans man and deals with dysphoria and will repost things constantly about wanting to khs over it and how he knows he won’t ever be seen as a real man and he’s even been shing over it. of course it is reasonable why he feels this way and I try my best to reassure him that I see him as a man because I do and that once we’re old enough I want to help him with his transition too because his parents really aren’t supportive. I cry worryjng about him everyday I do not want to lose the love of my life and the only one whose ever understood me.. but I am really feeling burnt out from the constant relapse and reposts about wanting to end his life. he even took 30 ibuprofen the other day and didn’t even say anything to me and I only found out from a repost about it on TikTok. I don’t know what to do I’m so exhausted and I just can’t seem to help him enough and it makes me feel like a horrible girlfriend for feeling that way.
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I feel so jealous whenever I see my friends or even my boyfriend being better at things than I am and I just feel like I’m so far behind. It could be things like art and other hobbies or even just their social life. The few friends I do have are able to make so many friends and actually have a life and do things and I feel like a loser because my mental health has stopped me from doing the things I love and putting myself out there for so long. I’ll be 17 in July and I’ve already wasted so many of my teen years isolating myself. The only person I really can talk to without feeling awkward is my boyfriend because obviously he understands me and we’ve been together for so long. I just wish I had more talent I genuinely cannot find any talent in myself :(